The Sound of Silence

Silence lingers in the corners of my mind
No quite in on the daily grind
How could I have been so blind?
Darkness lingers on my lips
I investigated all around, but no one gave me any tips
My heart is doing irregular flips
All that I held dear is dead
Every memory burned on a fire waiting to be fed
Grabbed by the heart, I am led
Somehow I knew this couldn't last
Now I shove it into the past
I've learned not to run, only to walk fast
Now you've had a little taste
Of what it's like to be chased
And all the time I gave you feels like a waste
Leftover thoughts make me feel used
In a way, my emotions were abused
And you always stood as the accused
I could never take the blame
You would always stand in shame
And still I'd be drawn, like a moth to flame
They may all take your side
But I haven't got any reason to hide
It's like the person I knew just died
There was a lot of things you fed me, most of them lies
I can always find new guys
You might want to try again before your hope dies
There was never even a farewell kiss
Just a shot and a miss
The gap between us feels like an abyss
This is all so twisted
All our flaws layed out and listed
While you are out holding drinks double-fisted
I never gave you what you wanted
For that, it was me your friends teased and taunted
But I stood firm, refused to be daunted
You stand there with your cigarette, thinking you are cool
I'll only say this once and I don't mean to be cruel
Standing there, you look like a total tool.
Was I just a game you wanted to play
That area isn't black and white, but gray
But I hope not, that is what I pray
I've started dreaming in Black and White
I've regained my will to stand and fight
Slowly my eyes will gain a new light
I hate the tone of my voice,
Cold, giving you no choice
But my eyes are moist
I was almost sure I loved you
But you threw me a way like an old shoe
what else could I do
I needed a way to lash out
and I couldn't just settle for a pout
I had the urge to scream and shout
Maybe it's time for me to let go
Even though I'm feeling so damned low
Like I'm standing on the edge and the wind is starting to blow
I'm lying on my bed
Static reflections in my head
I know these feelings of dread
But I also know me
So just wait and see
Because sometime soon I WILL be free