The Sound of Silence

Have you ever done something you regretted
But were glad you did at the same time?

I did something for you
But you don't know the sacrifice i made
I feel so STUPID
And so insecure
But I wish I had told you I loved you
While I had the chance

I decided to help you
With her instead
I feel like i just dropped myself on my head
I always ruin all  my chances
But you say I'll find a guy
I don't want any guy,
I just want you.

I don't know if you'll hear me yet
But I do wish you'd stumble across this blog
Only I don't think you'd know it'd be me
But I just wish you could read what I feel

Bright blue eyes, perfect red lips,
Porcelain skin, flawless beauty,
Face covered in a spiderweb veil.
Lunar glow, illuminating her pale face
The perfect corpse, the perfect glow.
A candle flickers at her bedside
Shuddering breaths, the last she'll draw.
The blood that has stained her hands
Is being repaid with a simple disease.
The poison flows through her veins,
The tinge of blue flowing through her skin.
Skin like parchment, paper thin
Looking like a frail leaf, faint shuddering.
She gasps her last breath,
And dies without a single word

Just forget about it
Say goodnight,
And hold me tight.
Don't draw out your
Farewell.
I'll miss you,
Sure enough,
But only for a while.
I hold my hand to
The window pane;
I watch the rain,
Watch you walk away.
I know you can't stay
But I'll miss you
In every way.
I rest my head on
The window pane
Hoping you won't
See my silent pain.

A candle
Burns brighter
In the darkness
When the demons
In the shadows
Shrink back into
Their darkened
Daydreams. As a
Spectre of the wind
Whistles through
The chimnies
Ghosts of smiles
Painted on dead
White faces, glassy
Eyes stare, empty, blankly,
Death settled on them
Black and glazed.

I can imagine, that you
Could easily reach me
In only a few strides,
And press your mouth
To mine, in some semblence
Of passion. But I know you
Don't feel the same, and the
Truth is hard to swallow.
I could see you were well,
Confused as we held hands
Just that once, you were
Scared, awkward, and
I wish you didn't feel like
That around me, because
You shouldn't, we're
Closer than that, I know it

I wish you were near
I wish you were here,
Right beside me.
I want the kind of love that last forever.
My black and white photograph of you
Slipped through loose fingers,
When I slid into my lifelike dream
In full colour. I'd like to believe your not gone
And when I watch the starts,
Only thinking of you and how our hands intertwined.
And some days I can only wish
That you were still here, because:
I hate waking up alone
In a city full of lights,
I need to dive back into life
Even without you. But I won't ever forget you
I can't
My first love, my only

Silence lingers in the corners of my mind
No quite in on the daily grind
How could I have been so blind?
Darkness lingers on my lips
I investigated all around, but no one gave me any tips
My heart is doing irregular flips
All that I held dear is dead
Every memory burned on a fire waiting to be fed
Grabbed by the heart, I am led
Somehow I knew this couldn't last
Now I shove it into the past
I've learned not to run, only to walk fast
Now you've had a little taste
Of what it's like to be chased
And all the time I gave you feels like a waste
Leftover thoughts make me feel used
In a way, my emotions were abused
And you always stood as the accused
I could never take the blame
You would always stand in shame
And still I'd be drawn, like a moth to flame
They may all take your side
But I haven't got any reason to hide
It's like the person I knew just died
There was a lot of things you fed me, most of them lies
I can always find new guys
You might want to try again before your hope dies
There was never even a farewell kiss
Just a shot and a miss
The gap between us feels like an abyss
This is all so twisted
All our flaws layed out and listed
While you are out holding drinks double-fisted
I never gave you what you wanted
For that, it was me your friends teased and taunted
But I stood firm, refused to be daunted
You stand there with your cigarette, thinking you are cool
I'll only say this once and I don't mean to be cruel
Standing there, you look like a total tool.
Was I just a game you wanted to play
That area isn't black and white, but gray
But I hope not, that is what I pray
I've started dreaming in Black and White
I've regained my will to stand and fight
Slowly my eyes will gain a new light
I hate the tone of my voice,
Cold, giving you no choice
But my eyes are moist
I was almost sure I loved you
But you threw me a way like an old shoe
what else could I do
I needed a way to lash out
and I couldn't just settle for a pout
I had the urge to scream and shout
Maybe it's time for me to let go
Even though I'm feeling so damned low
Like I'm standing on the edge and the wind is starting to blow
I'm lying on my bed
Static reflections in my head
I know these feelings of dread
But I also know me
So just wait and see
Because sometime soon I WILL be free

I like having you near
You rid me of all my fears
How could I have gone on without you
Without you here by my side

How could you...you of all people, break my heart? This sick feeling in my stomach told me that you had this capacity to break me. Why? And how? Why did you make this happen? How could you even think of doing this to me when I loved you like I did, so completely, so purely

I don't think I can do this
You already know I'm afraid of the dark
I need you sleeping next to me

It's over, done. I'm leaving you behind. You'll claim I made a mistake, but I can't do this anymore. You'll say I'm wrong, you'll say I'm being stupid, immature, but I know what I'm doing. You blamed me for stuff you couldn't do, but now that I'm gone, who are you to say that shit to me. I'm done being the victim of your bad day, so let go, I'm done with you!

I only listen because I want to
I choose to
I don't have to listen to you anymore

I miss you, I really do;
There's something in me longing for you.
It's some slow, sweet, sad symphony
and I don't try to make a harmony;
That's when you leave me here,
Alone to face my every fear.
I need you to hold me tight
And never let me out of your sight;
I wish you were beside me
Because right now I need to scream.
My sun is burning out
It's eclipsed by my ragged shout.
Why aren't you by my side
You said you'd be there when I cried
Where Are You Now?

I think the best thing that can happen is falling out of love. The sad part is when you never realized you were in love until you fell out of it. I was listening to Rose(instrumental) from Titanic today, and I love it, it just flows over me and it's like a balm for the soul. Now seeing as I haven't updated in a few days, anyone reading this wouldn't have a clue, but I'm better, I'm not wallowing away in my shallow pit anymore. But I realized that music can make us believe, and it can make us strong again. But really, it's weird, it almost scares me the fact that I might be falling out of love, because I didn't know I was in love, or I just didn't believe it.


I was talking to a few of my friends and telling them some of my plans, and I was telling them something about one of my good guy friends and me, and they were saying "Awwwww, that's so cute" and I didn't get it....in fact I still don't. But there's a difference between that and the way people react when I tell them the guy I like is dating one of my best friends. And as much as I believe I love my friends boyfriend....or at least thought I did, maybe I was wrong. Or maybe I'm simply falling out of love because he's not the right guy for me. Or maybe I still love/like him, and I'm just trying not to. Maybe trying not to is the best alternative, really...wouldn't that make sense though.


I write poetry to people, and I've constantly been writing poetry about this guy, and I realized when I was reading over it, that maybe I am in love with him, but he's simply not right for me because he doesn't understand my needs...and well, maybe that's the truth.


So listen to Rose(instrumental) from the Titanic, and You're Not Alone by Saosin, because they're amazing, and maybe they'll make you fall out of love, or maybe they'll make you fall in love again


Try as hard as you can to fall in love, and never fall out of love, because sometimes falling out of love is good but it can ruin your faith in love


I don't know what you believe
But I need to believe in love
I can't live without the thought
That you will be there every day
And I'll miss you if you ever leave
But I know I'm not alone
Because you're always by my side
In heart and in mind
And some days I may miss you
But I know you'll be back
By my side again soon
I Love You
Or maybe I don't
I don't know