The Sound of Silence

do you know what i'm losing?
because I don't.
do you know what i'm feeling?
because i don't.
When did this become so hard,
making decisions that make me better.
I'm falling back.
Imagine how one progression of notes
of chords
of lyrics
made me fall right back into that conversation with him.
when did i go blonde?

Changing faces, changing seasons, never letting go.
I'm losing sleep and dreaming of you.
So hard to forget our past transgressions.
Lead me into darkness and lay me down to rest in peace.
Push me out to sea, float me away on a bed of roses.
When my blue eyes can see no longer, let me sink beneath the waves.

Would it kill you just to love me,
even just to pretend?
Lead me in the darkness,
and then let me die.
I'm okay with that,
I'm ready for a lie.
Now that I'm looking for a man,
you're the one I can't have
and I don't know where else to look,
because you're all I know.
I don't know what i'm looking for,
But I know I need to find someone.
Why is moving on so damn hard to do

This is what you do
You break the hearts,
Just like breaking skin.
But you can't be to blame,
You're a flirt,
Pure and simple.
I hate it,
I'm not jealous,
But why you at like this,
I'm mad,
Because I know it's you

it feels like i've lost my best friend
i just want to cry
I feel depressed
I just want to curl up in his arms
but he's the one who betrayed me
who let this all go to shit

He's the reason i'm sitting here bawling my eyes out
feeling sick to my stomach,
and listening to the heaviest music on my ipod
just to tune him out

and it hurts so bad
and it feels like it'll never stop

how does he get away with this
I can't ignore him forever
but it feels like what he want me to do

wow, just wow,
I can handle the fact you don't like me
whatever,
it doesn't even fucking matter

But that you don't want to talk to me
that I'm causing you stress

You're one of my best friends
and I thought I was yours
and your not going to talk to me
until you want to?

what, is your heart fucking made of stone?

Really?

FUCK YOU.
I guess you didn't get that from the text i sent.

though I thought saying
"okay, whatever. let me know when you want to talk"
was code for
fuck you.

So suck this jackass

Baby I've finally got you back,
You're finally talking to me
I'm nearly catatonic at the thought of losing you,
When I don't even know if theres a
"Me and You"
Baby please come back, you're not allowed to leave,
You and me, it's not as crazy as it seems.

You're back from your jaunt to Kansas,
and that sudden influx of facebook messages is beginning to make me feel threatened.
Especially since all the messages are from girls.
Really?
Do you lack the ability to make friends with boys?
Or do girls really just become friends with you because of your wit and good looks.
I'm trying not to be sarcastic
I'm trying not to be a bitch
But really?
There's a girl right here, in your city, in your life
and you don't even have the guts to text her, to facebook her?
Not since our grad night,
when we slow-danced,
and I got lost in your eyes,
and breathless in your arms.
It's so hard to see the facebook messages from them,
gushing "We miss you, we miss you :) :)"
And it's impossible for me not to feel threatened,
because you've told me
"we're just friends"

And now you're back from kansas.
"Toto, I don't think you're in Kansas anymore,"
Even a hello would've been nice
Because I'm tired of making all the effort.
I'm giving and giving,
please start taking.
I like you so much and I don't know what to do,
Just let me in.
Please.
Oh yeah,
Hello again

There have been three major events that I have dreamed of since I was little; my graduation, my wedding, and having children. In five days as of tiday, the first one happens

I've walked these hallowed halls for thirteen years
and now I long to run through them screaming "It's over, I'm done"
It's time to say goodbye, I'm not sad, but I'm not happy.
When I'm wearing that beautiful designer dress,
eating a fancy dinner, with orchids on my wrist,
while I'm dancing the night away with my best friend,
and the guy I like...two different guys might I add, though they both are my best friends.
When I tell the guy I like that I still like him,
and when I tell him that he has a little more competition then planned,
Maybe something will happen.
Because I've dreamed of what his kisses will be like.
And when we're in the museum, in the planetarium,
when the stars are reflected on the ceiling above us.
It's over, and I know then that it's over for good.
But I can't say I'm sad to leave.
This place has suffocated me and helped me grow
but it's time for me to move on,
to blossom into womanhood, something i've been on the cusp of for years,
to become all I want to be,
To grow up finally,
and feel totally free

I'm drowning in your eyes,
glacial blue,
so beautiful.

Turn around bright eyes,
so I can drown in your gaze.
Wake up, wake up, I'm right here.

I'm lost in the depths,
lost in your eyes,
lost in your mouth.

You do something amazing to me,
notice me, notice me,
just look my way

Turn around
So I can drown again