The Sound of Silence

Baby I've finally got you back,
You're finally talking to me
I'm nearly catatonic at the thought of losing you,
When I don't even know if theres a
"Me and You"
Baby please come back, you're not allowed to leave,
You and me, it's not as crazy as it seems.

You're back from your jaunt to Kansas,
and that sudden influx of facebook messages is beginning to make me feel threatened.
Especially since all the messages are from girls.
Really?
Do you lack the ability to make friends with boys?
Or do girls really just become friends with you because of your wit and good looks.
I'm trying not to be sarcastic
I'm trying not to be a bitch
But really?
There's a girl right here, in your city, in your life
and you don't even have the guts to text her, to facebook her?
Not since our grad night,
when we slow-danced,
and I got lost in your eyes,
and breathless in your arms.
It's so hard to see the facebook messages from them,
gushing "We miss you, we miss you :) :)"
And it's impossible for me not to feel threatened,
because you've told me
"we're just friends"

And now you're back from kansas.
"Toto, I don't think you're in Kansas anymore,"
Even a hello would've been nice
Because I'm tired of making all the effort.
I'm giving and giving,
please start taking.
I like you so much and I don't know what to do,
Just let me in.
Please.
Oh yeah,
Hello again

There have been three major events that I have dreamed of since I was little; my graduation, my wedding, and having children. In five days as of tiday, the first one happens

I've walked these hallowed halls for thirteen years
and now I long to run through them screaming "It's over, I'm done"
It's time to say goodbye, I'm not sad, but I'm not happy.
When I'm wearing that beautiful designer dress,
eating a fancy dinner, with orchids on my wrist,
while I'm dancing the night away with my best friend,
and the guy I like...two different guys might I add, though they both are my best friends.
When I tell the guy I like that I still like him,
and when I tell him that he has a little more competition then planned,
Maybe something will happen.
Because I've dreamed of what his kisses will be like.
And when we're in the museum, in the planetarium,
when the stars are reflected on the ceiling above us.
It's over, and I know then that it's over for good.
But I can't say I'm sad to leave.
This place has suffocated me and helped me grow
but it's time for me to move on,
to blossom into womanhood, something i've been on the cusp of for years,
to become all I want to be,
To grow up finally,
and feel totally free

I'm drowning in your eyes,
glacial blue,
so beautiful.

Turn around bright eyes,
so I can drown in your gaze.
Wake up, wake up, I'm right here.

I'm lost in the depths,
lost in your eyes,
lost in your mouth.

You do something amazing to me,
notice me, notice me,
just look my way

Turn around
So I can drown again

So this is a song i'm working on. Comments, Ideas? gladly taken

I need you to be my superman, lead me by the hand, tell me everything will be okay. You can't ever lie, I'll never give you the chance cause I don't wanna let go of you. If you can read my mind, you'll know I never want you out of my sight. Just take me by the hand and lead me away from this mess, you're my superman, rescue me from the flaws inside

You know who you are if you're reading this;

Goodbye. How I wish I could say this to you, to free my heart, to be able to rid my heart of fear. Because love includes fear, and for me, love is fear. Sometimes we have to remember the simplicity of love and fear. Fear accelerates us, sometimes in the direction we don't want to go. I know that's happened to me. The night falls though, and as I lie in bed, staring at the ceiling, I don't know what I want. I sit, watching people throw their lives away, watching people try to fall in love, while I sit here hoping maybe my affection will be returned, maybe someone will be there to break that fear I have of being loved. I wish I didn't feel so lonely  when it finally hit me that you weren't around, because I wish you were with me. When you flirted with someone, I felt strangled. That's why I walked away whenever you were with her, but you didn't notice. You didn't notice me until we flirted or you chased after me trying to find out what was wrong, or when you showed me new music. You never noticed when I studied you from the corners of my eyes. You didn't notice that you made me nostalogic and sad, and that whenever you wrapped your arms around me it felt right. I thought there was hope for us, but I was wrong. I wake up to blinding sunlight every morning, and it still makes me think of the brief times when you smile. But I'm done, there's no way this jealousy and tiredness can go on forever. Goodbye, I've moved on
Little_red

It should be illegal for you to be so amazing
It should be illegal for you to be so attractive.
It should be illegal for you to be funny,
and it should be illegal that I want to bend over backwards for you.
It should be illegal for you not to like me,
It should be illegal for you not to kiss me,
It should be illegal for us not to sing together.
It should be illegal for us to not touch hands more often,
It should be illegal for you not to laugh at me and with me
It should be illegal that you make me have so much fun.

I call you a trap,
yeah that's right,
that's what you are.

At least to me.
Everytime I see you
after I've convinced myself I don't care,
You convince me otherwise.

You prey on an unsuspecting female,
me.

And really,
Do you like me?
I have no clue...
None at all.
Way to sneak up on me.

You always catch me unawares,
catch me in your blue eyed stare,
wow...

It should be illegal for your eyes to be that blue,
It should be illegal for your body to look that good,
It should be illegal for me to want you like I do....

you're a trap.
And i'm the fly

So today was nice. I had a major flirtfest with guy friend whom I like kinda who has rejected me once already. It's really hard to tell if he's changed his mind or something. Also, my friend and I avoided another guy that my friend did some pretty shady stuff with. And my dog ran away. I also have a chemistry (AHHH RUN AWAY) test tomorrow, but i'm sure I'll be okay. And to top it all off, only three more days of school this week.
What a random day

I can feel it, the darkness  beneath my skin
clawing, twisting, turning inside,
begging to  be let free.
Darkness lashes at the corners of my mind,
trying to capture my heart inside.

The demon lingers in my skin, screaming, squirming, strained within
oozing from my pores.
I clench sharp nails
into the tender flesh of my palm,
keeping the demon within.
This is what it feels like
to share your skin.

Let me let go,
I want to keep my control
I don't want this to run my life,
I can't escape the demon within my veins.
It's so black,
So sick,
So dead,
I wish that I could shed my skin

These are the words of the demon inside,
claws grasping, tearing up my throat,
intercepting the words I spoke,
the gutteral sounds of dying within,
this is what it's like to share your skin