The Sound of Silence

It's not that simple,
'cause you bring
me the thunder,
the lightning
and the rain.

Wrapped up in silk, satin, lace,
Baby, you're my only vice.
Black as sin and cold as ice,
There's nothing I'd be willing to sacrifice
If I'm giving up on all my life.
I used to think I'd never let go,
I lied.
I said good-bye.
You want me?
Come chase me, find me, get me.

I need to learn how to breath,
to live, to function.
The blood needs to keep flowing
through my veins.

You have to understand,
someone else is my drug.
I need someone who I can dance with in my living room,
A man I'll never second guess.
Our goodbye kiss better be fuelled by fire.
I want to take things slow,
Make things last.
I'm a flight risk,
Ready to turn and run.
You have to understand,
Someone else has my heart.
You won't be good enough in the end.
Sorry I have to let you know

A broken heart is not a home.
Please, just leave me alone.
When sorry's not good enough,
You know you've lost your last chance.

I came pre-packaged,
with my baggage.
I don't trust, I just stand and fight.
I'm not going to lay my armour down
Just because you want me to.

I don't work like that,
I'm not your machine.
I won't come clean,
Stop your chase.
This is through

Don't you want to stay?
Our good-bye kiss fuelled
by unspoken desire.
Can I just stay in your arms?
Just hold me,
Let's take this slow.
I want to be in love,
And I want to make us last
Tears are falling down my cheeks
Can't we fall asleep together

What happened to me.
I used to be so involved,
So attached.
Now I'm in my own little world,
One of my best friends has been in a relationship and out of one,
before I even got to talk to her about it.

Is that the way it's supposed to be?
Suddenly you're in university and nothing really matters anymore?

I'm pulling away from my family,
the people I love the most.

I used to be able to psychoanalyze myself,
I can't even do that anymore.
I don't know what's wrong.

I see one or two friends from high school now.
I know I had more than that.

I feel so lonely,
But I don't know why I'm pulling away.
Tell me,
What happened to me?

Flowers.
Red Roses. They mean I love you. Overrated
Teddies,
Puppies,
Kittens,
Sprawled across cheap cards.
Sold at the dollar store, packs of fifty
Perfect for children to distribute in their classrooms.

Jewellery stores mark-up of course
Valentine's day
The romantic holiday.
Perfect for buying necklaces,
Bracelets,
Diamonds,
Jewels,
A ring maybe?
To squeals of delight and lavish applause.
Yes or no?

A conversation.
Held with hearts.
Cheaply made candy,
Heart-shaped boxes.
Bulk containers of little red cinnamon hearts.
A little spice in the love life?

Fleeting glances.
Whispered apologies.
Strawberry milk and pink scrambled eggs.
Mother saying:
"I made these with love, that's why they're pink"
Precious cards,
scribbled with pencil crayon,
or maybe crayon
Hearts.

A deep sigh.
One glancing at the other,
Satisfied looks fleeting across faces.
A deep kiss.
Brushing her feet against his inner thighs.
Wrapped up in red,
pink,
or white sheets.
Sloppy grins.
Glass of wine in hand.

And so on it goes.
I'm sitting here, waiting for my knight in shining armour.
But I don't see that white horse coming.

I guess i'm not enough of a damsel in distress,
fighting my own battles,
simply being me.

It just feels like I'm going to die alone.
I mean I know i'm only 18.
But still, it's one of those feelings you know.

Starving,
thin,
wasting to the bone.
Bitten,
broken,
rotten to the core.