The Sound of Silence

What happened to me.
I used to be so involved,
So attached.
Now I'm in my own little world,
One of my best friends has been in a relationship and out of one,
before I even got to talk to her about it.

Is that the way it's supposed to be?
Suddenly you're in university and nothing really matters anymore?

I'm pulling away from my family,
the people I love the most.

I used to be able to psychoanalyze myself,
I can't even do that anymore.
I don't know what's wrong.

I see one or two friends from high school now.
I know I had more than that.

I feel so lonely,
But I don't know why I'm pulling away.
Tell me,
What happened to me?

Flowers.
Red Roses. They mean I love you. Overrated
Teddies,
Puppies,
Kittens,
Sprawled across cheap cards.
Sold at the dollar store, packs of fifty
Perfect for children to distribute in their classrooms.

Jewellery stores mark-up of course
Valentine's day
The romantic holiday.
Perfect for buying necklaces,
Bracelets,
Diamonds,
Jewels,
A ring maybe?
To squeals of delight and lavish applause.
Yes or no?

A conversation.
Held with hearts.
Cheaply made candy,
Heart-shaped boxes.
Bulk containers of little red cinnamon hearts.
A little spice in the love life?

Fleeting glances.
Whispered apologies.
Strawberry milk and pink scrambled eggs.
Mother saying:
"I made these with love, that's why they're pink"
Precious cards,
scribbled with pencil crayon,
or maybe crayon
Hearts.

A deep sigh.
One glancing at the other,
Satisfied looks fleeting across faces.
A deep kiss.
Brushing her feet against his inner thighs.
Wrapped up in red,
pink,
or white sheets.
Sloppy grins.
Glass of wine in hand.