Hey Guys...
Well, i'm not sure if this is what you new followers want to read, me, whining about my feelings....okay well my poetry is that too, but this is a journal entry. Well, I don't know how far back you guys have read, but I've got this guy friend, whom I really like......
Well, it's kind of game over for me. I was officially rejected today. He told me "We're best friends, but I don't feel anything more, you're just not the girl for me".....Ouch. Of course at first it didn't hurt. In fact, I went till 9:00 PM (which is like now) without hurting....but now it's really starting to hurt.
I don't get it. I thought that we'd be perfect for each other seeing as we were best friends, but I guess I was wrong. Okay, so I dated this really bad, not fun, not cool guy two years ago...that guy was my first boyfriend. After him and I broke up, I decided I was never going to date a guy who wasn't my friend first. Now I'm wondering if I should've said that, because it seems that once you become best friends with a guy, you're permanently stuck there.
And this has been a cause of many sighs. But I want this guy sooooo much. I've liked him for almost two years, it's just weird how he never could've felt anything...I don't get it.
Anyhow
I've gotta have you
I thought you were in my blood
I thought you were in my soul.
I wish we could've worked forever
I had so many dreams for you and I,
But I guess they're all shattered,
On the floor.
It's the bitter truth,
I wish we could take it back.
My throat is aching,
I want to cry,
I want to scream and shout.
Why did I lie,
Tell you I'm okay.
I wish we could be.
7 comments:
There is no answer. But I have been married for 12 years to a man I was friends with for over two years before we started dating. So it's possible, just maybe not him. I love the poem.
Awe! I am sorry. I am not sure what even to say. But you know what don't give up. I am not saying pursue him till it is uncomfortable, just sit back and let him see how awesome you are.
The poem was beautiful.
This is your blog, write what you want! You don't need to apologize! Whine away! I do it enough! LOL!
Hun, I have JUST pulled through a very similar situation! In fact some of the last few "poems" I've written were about it! lol...
Your situation seems on better terms though, you still have a friendship, and he is still a best mate!I wouldn't suggest waiting for him to see how awesome you are though, don't go out of your way to put more energy and time into something that may just end up hurting more... He already knows how great you are, that's why you're friends in the first place! :)
Love goes two ways hun, keep that in mind ;)
Beautiful soul, keep strong!
Well, a lot of long-term relationships often turn into something much more than friendships, so I wouldn't let him see how down you are....just carry on as normal, and see what happens. He will probably see that he really does have feelings for you.
Honestly, guys are just so useless at noticing what is right in front of their faces at times!
Just you go on being you! Good luck!
Big hugs!
There is an award for you....and a tag on my site!
Turn the pain into words..express them and grow from them. Never ever burn a bridge until you know you will NEVER cross it again--One thing I love to love- Is HOPE--there is always hope, and this was his loss- not yours--you are special!!!! Your next will be even better!
At least I hope so!!!...but remember- It's not you--it's hardly ever you! It almost always us!
JOhn
John
Hey, Alyssa, how are you doing? It has been a while since your last post, and I'm getting a bit worried about you.
Don't let anything put you off blogging.
If you need to chat, you can contact me through my blog, or e-mail me at:ladyjaynegrey@yahoo.co.uk
Hope to hear from you soon!
Take care, sweetie!
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