The Sound of Silence

You invade my senses,
walking into my every thought.
I can remember your voice,
your touch,
your face,
you scent,
and I wish I could taste your lips.
You cloud my mind with your presence
and your smile makes my knees go weak,
it's like you're running through my veins.
We're unconciously hardwired for the same thing.
That's why you're still so in love with her,
still so attached.
And my heart aches when I feel your pain,
I know it,
I've been there.
It's not just blanket statement agony,
but it's just too hard to explain

Sing to me
'Cause I can't breathe,
it's like a blanket of agony
has settled over me.
I don't wanna let you go,
but I guess I don't have a choice.
My throat is choked,
I can't breathe,
it feels like my heart bleeds
because of you.
It's a bittersweet symphony
and I can't find the harmony.
I thought we could write this song together,
But you broke my heart.

Hey Guys...
Well, i'm not sure if this is what you new followers want to read, me, whining about my feelings....okay well my poetry is that too, but this is a journal entry. Well, I don't know how far back you guys have read, but I've got this guy friend, whom I really like......

Well, it's kind of game over for me. I was officially rejected today. He told me "We're best friends, but I don't feel anything more, you're just not the girl for me".....Ouch. Of course at first it didn't hurt. In fact, I went till 9:00 PM (which is like now) without hurting....but now it's really starting to hurt.

I don't get it. I thought that we'd be perfect for each other seeing as we were best friends, but I guess I was wrong. Okay, so I dated this really bad, not fun, not cool guy two years ago...that guy was my first boyfriend. After him and I broke up, I decided I was never going to date a guy who wasn't my friend first. Now I'm wondering if I should've said that, because it seems that once you become best friends with a guy, you're permanently stuck there.

And this has been a cause of many sighs. But I want this guy sooooo much. I've liked him for almost two years, it's just weird how he never could've felt anything...I don't get it.

Anyhow

I've gotta have you
I thought you were in my blood
I thought you were in my soul.
I wish we could've worked forever
I had so many dreams for you and I,
But I guess they're all shattered,
On the floor.
It's the bitter truth,
I wish we could take it back.
My throat is aching,
I want to cry,
I want to scream and shout.
Why did I lie,
Tell you I'm okay.
I wish we could be.

I'm not the one who'd make the first move
I'm not brazen,
Not comfortable,
The sexual tension from waiting for a kiss
For TWO DAMN YEARS,
and I don't act like a slut
And somehow I'm still a risk,
Like a bomb waiting to explode.
Is that really what you want to happen,
Because baby when it comes to blows
I'll always win

I guess I gave you permission,
"Go ahead and break my heart"
I guess I didn't need it anyways.